Waiting for... nothing?
Waiting for something to happen?
life has been going really well, but...
lately (the past 5 months) i've been unable to shake this feeling of waiting for something to happen in my life, almost as if i'm not actively living.
it's weird, because no matter how much time i dedicate to my hobbies and relationships, i still feel like i'm not not doing what i'm supposed to be doing, just feeling like i'm waiting to find something purposeful. is this something common?
the lack of external goals in my life has given me enough freedom to choose for myself which goals i want to pursue. the only problem is, i have none, or at least i'm waiting to find one. aside from my exams, there's nothing in my life that's forcing me to work towards a goal, i'm left with just my free will and my aspirations to decide what i want to do moving forwards.
the hobbies i spend time on and the creative works i've tried to pursue feel like nothing more than just a way to pass the time while i'm not dealing with what "really matters".
what really matters though?? i'm still waiting to find out.